Friday, March 8, 2013
FORGETTING MYSELF
I HATE WRITING BLOGS . I AM A PERSONAL DAIRY WRITER . FIRST TIME MOVING THROUGH THIS TO EXPRESS FEW THINGS . LOOKING AT THIS WORLD , PEOPLE AROUND ME , THEIR ACTIVITIES I AM QUITE CONFUSED . ALL ARE HAVING SOME DREAMS AND EXPECTATIONS . . BUT QUESTION IS WHETHER FULFILLMENT OF THEIR DREAMS AND EXPECTATIONS LEAD TO A HAPPIER LIFE????? IF YOU SAY YES THEN I WILL QUESTION YOU AGAIN R YOU HAPPY????? THEN SOME PEOPLE WILL SAY "YAR AAB TOH JINDEGI MAI BAHAT KUCH ACHIEVE KARNA HAI " . LIFE WILL CONTINUE TO THROW DIFFERENT ROUTES FOR OUR LIFE'S JOURNEY . AND WE WILL CONTINUE TO STRUGGLE TO CHOOSE RIGHT ROUTE . I WORK IN A OFFICE WHERE ALL OFFICIALS OF MY DEPARTMENT ARE PLUS 50 . MAXIMUM OF THEM WILL RETIRE AFTER 4-5 YEARS . WHEN I SEE THEM I QUESTION MYSELF WHETHER I WILL END-UP LIKE THIS WHEN I WILL REACH PLUS 50???? I HAVE JOINED MY NEW OFFICE 6 MONTHS BACK . WITH IN THESE 6 MONTHS I HAVE GOT FEW OPPORTUNITIES TO ATTEND SOME HEATED DISCUSSION MEETINGS . DURING MEETING MANY GET TENSED. MANY GET ANGRY. FEW EXCHANGE HEATED WORDS . FEW BANG THEIR HEADS . FEW ASK FOR COFFEE 2-3 TIMES IN 2 HOURS MEETING TO GET SOME RELIEF. BUT WHY ALL THESE????? BECAUSE SOME BIG BOSS HAS ASKED FOR FEW DATA AND JUSTIFICATION. ALL WANT TO SATISFY THEIR BIGBOSS SO THAT THEY WILL GET SOME INCREASE IN THEIR BASIC SALARY IN OTHER-SENSE WHAT WE CALL PROMOTION AND THAT TO THERE IS NO GUARANTEE RATHER A HOPE .I AM NOT JUST TALKING ABOUT OTHERS ALSO ABOUT MY SELF . I AM ALSO FEELING SAME THING MAY HAPPEN WITH ME . WITH IN THIS SYSTEM I FORGET MY FAMILY MY FRIENDS . AFTER GETTING HUNDRED OF CALLS IN PHONE IT IS REALLY HARD TO HANDEL 101st CALL FROM MY HOME . THEN PARENT WILL SAY "KYA BETA TUM AAJ KAL CALL HI NAHIN KARTE. AAB WHAT TO REPLY??? HAN KAAM MAI THODA BUSY THA....THEN ASK MYSELF " BHAI KAB TAK ESA BOLEGA"???? SO THIS IS WHAT WE CALL SYSTEM . AND WE ARE FOLLOWING A PARTICULAR THREAD OF THIS SYSTEM AND WILL CONTINUE TO FOLLOW . IS THERE ANY END TO IT????????????
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Very true
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ReplyDeleteInteresting post. I do think about these sometimes. I wonder if it is possible for all of us to be happy? With the limited resources, all of us can't have the life we all may want. It is really a lot about clearly deciding what you want. And everything is a consequence of our own choice. It's all like we are all chasing a dream. We all may have different dreams. But in a sense we all share the same frustrations - of things not being like how we want them to be. In those moments I really introspect a lot. I recalculate my trajectory. The most frustrating thing in life is taking a headache that you don't really know if you really should be even taking that - the pressure to perform to please a boss for example. There one needs to ask oneself: why am I doing this? Can I just stop doing it? What are my other options? And I don't know if such a thing a thing can be called as happiness, but accepting the answers to those questions does warranty a certain peace and tranquility. I don't know where I am headed to. I think as long as there is something challenging and interesting and doable thing to do, I would be happy. It is also possible that even after doing my best I might still fail. There could be something I didn't foresee which could put my entire life into jeopardy, for example say I end up having a very bad phase with my girl friend. All my career related success will feel like emptiness. There something else has to suffer. It will affect other things. But all of that is alright. Being frustrated is also a good thing. It means that you believe something ought not be how it is and which means you have a problem ahead of you, the problem to change certain things. All that is a great thing. Either you change the scene or you change your expectations. Something has to happen next. And that is a good thing, my friend! :) Thanks for your post! It feels as if all that I worried about also had their solutions in me. And I was looking elsewhere all this while.
ReplyDeleteyou are also having a bright sense of lyf frnd..:)
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